“Know what your problem is, Shapiro? It’s that you just have this really shitty way of looking at things, ya know? I don’t have that problem. I just look at the dopeness. But you, it’s like you just look at the wackness, ya know?”

This quote really stood out to me while I watched The Wackness the other day because it reminded me what a shitty way of looking at things EYE have and how I need to change it. And basically it’s the same shit Gandhi, Einstein, Buddhism, Deepak Chopra, The Secret and many other amazing philosophers preach and what I already know and have been working on but thinking positive when you’ve been conditioned to think negatively for so long is quite the struggle. I’m so glad I learned this lesson early on in life though. I can’t even stand to be around negative ass people anymore which is a real stab at my soul since my family is full of a bunch of debbie downers & it gets so irritating because they don’t even realize that they’re projecting their misery and negativity on everyone around them. They think they’re being real. See, I used to call my pessimistic attitude realistic too. I used to think that reality was just that fucked up that people confused me being a realist with being a pessimist. But I was wrong. And I still catch myself falling victim to my old way of thinking sometimes. My friend (who quit smoking weed) started hanging around people who do smoke weed and I immediate said “I hope you don’t become a pothead”. Sure, I might’ve meant well with what I said but just the way I said it was in a way that instilled doubt in him and implied I thought he would. I’ve apologized but I’m disappointed in myself because that was my initial reaction and first though. I could’ve been encouraging, I could’ve implied that I knew he’d never, projecting positivity on him…but I didn’t. I want this bad juju out of my heart. Now.